God is your way of access! He is your door. He is all knowing and all powerful. Once you embrace who He truly is, it will change your life.
When Jesus went to the cross, He went for me, as me. And, He got up as me. In other words, Jesus got up as a shadow of you. The question is, are we really resurrected?
Could it be possible that you are looking for the right thing in the wrong place? If you trust God, follow Him immediately as He leads you. Be willing to make a change.
Jesus sits down in our lives and situations, changing things around. He will take you through things that you thought you would not survive. His presence makes all the difference.